Thoughts about how to approach Conspiratorial Diabolism are racing through my head all of the time. Weirdly enough I realized that one of my inspirations for this project is the Comedy Central animated television show Ugly Americans because the edgelord in me always wanted to learn more about how their demon society functions in Hell, it seems to be a bizarre parody of American capitalism as encapsulated by New York. There's a joke in it there at some convention where a demon is running a booth called Hegelian Dialectic for the 21st Century and it has a green portrait of Hegel next to the portrait of a demon in a business suit. I wonder what the interpretation of Hegel was like in demon society. Finding the ideas of others underdeveloped, disappointing, or as missed opportunities, seems to be the guiding thread in my own writing practice, I'm always traveling my way through the ( )holey space of other texts. Despite my fascination, recently I've been thinking of Satanism as a bit of a juvenile reaction or jealously towards the sheer grandeur of the Catholic Church, with its liturgical rites, awe-inspiring buildings, martyrs, and its holy procession of 10,000 saints. So, I had the idea: what if Conspiratorial Diabolism is set in a world where Satanism occupies the place that the Catholic Church has occupied historically in our world, and the writings in the book are essentially the theoretical writings and ritual descriptions of a renegade outsider group of Satanists trying to dismantle the dominant (molar) Satanism that's a part of their historical and social context? I'm just spitballing here. One of my goals is to try to attempt to construct a sufficiently systematic theological foundation for Satanism in my universe. Another thing that I remembered recently is that when I was a kid I really liked the movie Constantine with Keanu Reeves and one of the most fascinating elements to me was the bit about the Bibles in Hell being different than they are on Earth, one of the examples being the Book of Corinthians which has 17 chapters in the Hell Bible but only 16 in the Earth Bible. When I later came across the Satanic Bible I was really hoping it'd be something like the Hell Bible in Constantine but it was nothing like it and I have always been disappointed ever since. I've been watching more Esoterica and some videos from Religion for Breakfast, two of my favorites. I haven't been taking any notes, just trusting in the power of passive synthesis. Haven't decided yet if I want to try to get a physical copy of The Lesser Key of Solomon. Trying my best to finish reading Cyclonopedia in a somewhat reasonable timeframe, it's there where I finally found a model for my own writing, the standard that I compare my own efforts with. Liber 909 has been on the backburner a little bit, but only because for some bizarre reason I feel so much momentum with Conspiratorial Diabolism.
I'm reading Libidinal Economy to ask a relatively simple question: why do I like the things that I like?