Thoughts about how to approach Conspiratorial Diabolism are racing through my head all of the time. Weirdly enough I realized that one of my inspirations for this project is the Comedy Central animated television show Ugly Americans because the edgelord in me always wanted to learn more about how their demon society functions in Hell, it seems to be a bizarre parody of American capitalism as encapsulated by New York. There's a joke in it there at some convention where a demon is running a booth called Hegelian Dialectic for the 21st Century and it has a green portrait of Hegel next to the portrait of a demon in a business suit. I wonder what the interpretation of Hegel was like in demon society. Finding the ideas of others underdeveloped, disappointing, or as missed opportunities, seems to be the guiding thread in my own writing practice, I'm always traveling my way through the ( )holey space of other texts. Despite my fascination, recently I've been thinking of Satanism as a bit of a juvenile reaction or jealously towards the sheer grandeur of the Catholic Church, with its liturgical rites, awe-inspiring buildings, martyrs, and its holy procession of 10,000 saints. So, I had the idea: what if Conspiratorial Diabolism is set in a world where Satanism occupies the place that the Catholic Church has occupied historically in our world, and the writings in the book are essentially the theoretical writings and ritual descriptions of a renegade outsider group of Satanists trying to dismantle the dominant (molar) Satanism that's a part of their historical and social context? I'm just spitballing here. One of my goals is to try to attempt to construct a sufficiently systematic theological foundation for Satanism in my universe. Another thing that I remembered recently is that when I was a kid I really liked the movie Constantine with Keanu Reeves and one of the most fascinating elements to me was the bit about the Bibles in Hell being different than they are on Earth, one of the examples being the Book of Corinthians which has 17 chapters in the Hell Bible but only 16 in the Earth Bible. When I later came across the Satanic Bible I was really hoping it'd be something like the Hell Bible in Constantine but it was nothing like it and I have always been disappointed ever since. I've been watching more Esoterica and some videos from Religion for Breakfast, two of my favorites. I haven't been taking any notes, just trusting in the power of passive synthesis. Haven't decided yet if I want to try to get a physical copy of The Lesser Key of Solomon. Trying my best to finish reading Cyclonopedia in a somewhat reasonable timeframe, it's there where I finally found a model for my own writing, the standard that I compare my own efforts with. Liber 909 has been on the backburner a little bit, but only because for some bizarre reason I feel so much momentum with Conspiratorial Diabolism.
I'm reading Libidinal Economy to ask a relatively simple question: why do I like the things that I like?
It's been hard for me to think of ideas for this book. As strange as it sounds, I think I'll do best to read a combination of the Satanic Front works and old Struggle Sessions articles that I plan to read with one of my professors. One of the things that I need to work out is the actual structure of my fictionalized version of the Satanic Front (or a fictional offshoot). In the meantime I need to read Paradise Lost, lately I've been thinking of it as the sort of national epic of the Satanic movement. Perhaps our origin story. The Lesser Key of Solomon provides the theoretical and practical basis for what Paradise Lost was able to accomplish artistically. I had the idea that I wanted to try to find an art major that could draw me some concept art but I feel like I might be able to accomplish it on my own. Probably something that would look like the artwork for Psycho Patrol R.
One thing I've been thinking of lately is I see Conspiratorial Diabolism as a sort of sequel to Liber 909, it's been more interesting to sort of write them together rather than apart from one another. I think Commissar Murnau will have been the first breakaway from the Temple of the Red Lodge to form my fictionalized interpretation of the Satanic Front.
I always defer writing these books to later dates and it's always because I'm in the process of reading something else that I think will clarify for me what it is that I even want to write in the first place and how I want to go about accomplishing it. Always excuses. There really needs to be a shitty first draft of this somewhere. I need to go over all of my old notes/manuscript for Liber 909 again, it's in a white binder in my apartment. I printed out everything that I had written for Liber 909 and compiled it all into what I call my "manuscript". I made the mistake of not printing the pages double sided and god knows how much extra money that cost to get printed at the university library. Always in a process of becoming-writer. 4 main projects. 4 persistent chances for deferral to a later date on a daily basis.