Solvit saeclum in favilla, ut voluit.
I found myself strangely unsatisfied with my previous attempt at a similar project, I believe my approach was a bit too vitriolic to be useful for the writing I wish to accomplish. Thus, I've decided to embark on a different project less rooted in polemic. This document will be merely intended to note where I think something in Liber 333 is interesting, and where I wish to change or deviate from what the text says, either by subtractions, additions, or intensifications. I dedicate these efforts to Felix Guattari, may he forgive its point of origin.
S I N I S T E R
28 + 18 + 23 + 18 + 28 + 29 + 14 + 27 = 185 [AQ Value]
1 + 8 + 5 = 14
1 + 4 = 5 [Digital Reduction]
Sinister was the first word that caught my attention in the introduction. To explain a bit of my methodology, while I went through this text for the second time, I took a green felt tip marker and underlined every word or phrase that I liked or found interesting and, using a Ruby tool, broke the word or phrase down into both its Anglossic Qabbala value and its digital reduction. This practice comes very specifically from my engagements with the works of the CCRU and thus my basic (emphasis on basic) familiarity with the Numogram. From this, I realized that I wanted to construct my own Numogram for the writing of Liber 909. And, not just one, but 3, in reference to Liber 333 as its source of origin. Essentially, Liber 909 as a project is a Numogrammatic reversal and exploration of Liber 333. All that aside, upon this third rereading (or maybe it's more of a skimming or a sampling) I didn't find much here that's interesting aside from the words I underlined and selected for digital reduction, and then assigned to one of the Zones of the Numogram of Gaubni. The only one worth noting is Blood Mistress [DR = 8, AQ = 287], the rest I can keep to myself as I likely already noted it when describing the Zones in the Strid Draft and I don't want this writing to become merely an index. The last thing worth noting is that this is the first writing which makes explicit reference to the Tempel ov Blood's methodology of trauma programming which I'm pretty sure is based on weird and horrifying MK Ultra experiments that were likely based on junk psychology. My first specific deviation from Liber 333 is precisely in this: trauma programming implies the existence of a rigorous process of trauma deprogramming initiated by the schizoanalysis of Felix Guattari.
Ever since I read this book for the first time, I've always had a strange fondness for the names of the various gods associated with the Order of Nine Angles and I wanted to strip them further from their point of origin. So, since Liber 333 references a variety of them throughout the book, I decided to write down the ones that I personally thought sounded the best and organized them numerically by the value of their digital reduction (rather than AQ value, which has always been emphasized more by Nick Land and Reza Negarestani and others of the CCRU to the detriment of digital reduction). This is the basis for the construction of the Numogram of Gaubni, of which its strictly hyperstitional history I've yet to write or elaborate.
ATAZOTH [DR = 1, AQ = 154]
DIABOLUS [DR = 2, AQ = 155]
SHUGARA [DR = 3, AQ = 138]
NAOS [DR = 4, AQ = 85]
BUDSTURGA [DR = 5, AQ = 194]
BINAN ATH [DR = 6, AQ = 141]
VELPECULA [DR = 7, AQ = 178]
LIDAGON [DR = 8, AQ = 125]
AZANIGIN [DR = 9, AQ = 153]
GAUBNI [DR = 9, AQ = 108]
As a small aside, I've truly yet to decide if I wish to name the 8th Zone after Lidagon or Noctulius.
If anyone's ever looked through the Strid Draft (which I don't advise), this bizarre and pointless emphasis of mine on digital reduction is why the first draft and its descriptions are such a mess. The only connections I'm making between words and concepts and figures is strictly of numerical importance. Rather than any sort of mystical or supernatural explanation, I think going through the book Numogrammatically allowed me to pay attention more to the affects produced by various words and which affects I could create by linking them with others, thus SHUGARA [DR = 3, AQ = 138] as the Prince of BLOOD [DR = 3, AQ = 93]. A sort of numerical poetry. I willingly admit, it is completely arbitrary and the only necessity that exists in the relations between them are the relations I force, through writing. The Zones of the Numogram of Gaubni are swarms which have slowly become infested with a litany of broken, beaten words.
How many know about crate diggin'? What does crate diggin' mean to me? Digging for them unordinary sounds and loops even if it's not clean to thee.
There's not much more to say about the prologue that I haven't already said in my previous writing. So, I'm merely going to mine it for samples. As another note, my intention to crate dig Liber 333 for samples is a nod to my history of electronic music production and also my desire to read William S. Burroughs' cut-up novels to get fresh ideas on what I could do with everything I select. As I go through these, I'm listening to the second part of Morton Subotnick's Silver Apples of the Moon, the more rhythmic half of the record.
...filled seemingly with the voices of thousands of native hideous spirits...
...a force which held within its very fabric the only hope of a real and legitimate Galactic Imperium.
I don't know if there's anything I could possibly do to make the Tempel ov Blood's (or possibly just Sutter's) idea of a Galactic Imperium anything but ridiculous. Maybe it's just a weird holdover from David Myatt's Order of Nine Angles writings. In my mind, maybe I could figure it out after I read that anthology of short stories from the Warhammer 40K universe that I have laying around. Maybe I'm not being creative enough. I really need to read Cyclonopedia instead of this shit.
...concertina-wired perimeter...
...transformed into the sounds of fratricidal cannibalization among the pack...
...of all that is excreted, and of all that sours...
There's a couple things that stood out to me while reading this section, the first was that I really liked the title of the section as a whole, Noctulian Communion. I just think it has a nice ring to it. As far as this particular writing, there's not a whole lot that I can use. On my handwritten notes on my physical copy I can see where I was trying to take this writing. First, leave behind the New Being concept, it's useless. Second, the word war showed up which made me think of Deleuze and Guattari's war machine, which after digital reduction I found corresponds to the Zone of Budsturga. This is also the first writing that mentions the Sinister Dialectic which is a concept that in these writings I think is completely incoherent but I might be able to make something usable out of it since I happen to know a thing or two about dialectics, being the Hegel Enjoyer that I am. There's also a mention of acausal energy which I again find mostly incoherent but weirdly enough it did make me start trying to think about acausality as a genuine philosophical problem, so I decided from this that I want to investigate Deleuze's writings on David Hume who, as far as I know, has launched the most damning assault on causality itself. I also wanted to start reinvestigating Spinoza because I see his deterministic philosophy as potentially (although not definitively) on the other end of the spectrum. This is also where my general idea for a Satanic Spinoza
started, which means I need to read A Book Forged in Hell after all. The only other things I noted were that I need to figure out what to do with the (potentially more literary or poetic) ideas of the Black Paradise and the Final Harvest as well as figure out how I want to try to work a Wicca coven into the story. There's also a laughable sentence that uses the turn of phrase blood essence and again, being a proper Hegelian, I remembered that essence is a meaningful philosophical category so I might be able to do something with the idea of blood essence by emphasizing the bodily aspect and point of origin for all categories. Bataille could be a good resource for this. This writing also ends with a quote from the Order of Nine Angle's Black Book of Satan where I got the idea for the Canticle of Satan by Dr. Jonathan Hubbur. More on him later.
I added all of the historical context for Choronzon that I wanted in my first attempt at doing this, I don't need to go over it again. I wrote down that I really don't know where I want to or could place this divinity in my writings or system, and I think I have a basic idea that Diabolus first appeared to Dr. Hubbur under the guise of Choronzon since at the time he was studying the writings of John Dee and Aleister Crowley so it would've been more intelligible to him for Diabolus to chose Choronzon as his avatar for the time being. From the writing itself, I realized that I want to make one of the characters a former member of the US Red Guards (city is undecided), but I don't yet know which one would be the most appropriate for the job.
...others will find ecstasy in his vile incarnation...
This particular sentence made me think of the Cenobites from Barker lore and made me realized that I wanted to an include an occult order that's similar to them, but I haven't really worked out the details yet. I'm realizing now that this whole writing is a lot of I don't know yet but this line of flight might be interesting.
It's bizarre to explain but as I read or skim this book for the third time, I think I'm reading it as a shitty first draft of something I wrote that I want to improve on and make more coherent. I think that's these guys' major malfunction, they don't seem to have bothered to revise anything because if they had worked their writings a little harder they would've realized that there's both interesting things that need to be developed further and incoherent things that either need to be revised or dropped entirely. Much like Deleuze and Guattari helping Lacan out a little,
I'm doing my best to fix this book in a way that I find satisfying to my tastes as a burgeoning horror author and neonate of Bataille.
Slave of desire, master of all.
For this, I need to reread Ian Wright's article Marx on Capital as a Real God. The first things I underlined were the phrases white lodge and black lodge which both digitally reduce to 9 (the Zone of Azanigin), which I found somewhat funny since to me this pointed to Sutter's ultimate collusion with the FBI, both the white lodge and the black lodge get their funding from the same source. Pure coincidence, hyperstitional coincidence. I also underlined Babylon which reminds me that I need to pay attention to Negarestani and the CCRU on Mesopotamia. This writing is where I started to have the idea of Vindex as the first Archon of Hell to be created by man which is specifically where I want Dr. Hubbur's character arc to be at its closest to the intrigue of Neon Genesis Evangelion. I believe this is also the piece where I started to germinate the basic concept of aeonic materialism as a response to the aeonic magick
of the Tempel ov Blood and other weirdo right-wing occultists. Honestly I think that's all I have for this writing.
...the promethean gleam...
...shock troops of the apocalypse...
This reminds me that I need to do this same kind of thing for Iron Gates, which I think is more important for trying to understand the Tempel ov Blood than Liber 333, but I genuinely have more fun reading Liber 333 than that book so it can wait.
...he is the possessor of secrets...
Satan, whose word is chaos, for aeons and aeons.
This is the first writing which makes mention of the Backwards Dark, which for whatever reason or another I find to be one of the most interesting and remarkable concepts in this whole book. I didn't start to have a coherent idea for what it could become until the other day when I was reading A Scanner Darkly. I don't think I can write anything coherent about this idea right now, but I will attempt to over time, the first thing I need to do is find the chapter of A Scanner Darkly that I'm thinking about. This is also the first place where you hear the turn of phrase Undead Gods which is I believe a term I want to use in addition to the Archons of Hell.
...the spirits of the Undead Gods must inhabit a new vessel which has been cleansed by the holy fires of ordeal...
...you yourself must be willing to step into the caustic and sinister black flames of change...
In the paragraph after that last selection you also see the first use of the term undeath which I think is another remarkable concept that I want to try to flesh out more, it immediately recalls to my mind the Death Surgery in Cruelty Squad.
...you must feel and experience firsthand the glory of horror and the purity of pain...
You shall become as we state. Our black hands of undeath are upon you now even as you read these words. You shall become that predator, that sinister beast of prey.
We walk among the stale atmospheres of the tombs and cremation grounds.
One particular sentence reminds me that I need to read Hinterlands by Phil Neel, a /leftypol/ classic. One little thing I wrote down is days of wrath, nights of lament.
This manuscript, whoever's hands it falls into, shall aid in the presencing of the dark.
...to keep order in and keep chaos out... This little fragment reminded me that I need to reread What is Philosophy? at some point, maybe in French. The next sentence reminded me to reread Bataille's The Notion of Expenditure.
Another sentence reminded me to read One Dimensional Man and some Baudrillard if I get the chance, as well as Bataille's Literature and Evil and that I need to pick up more collections of paintings.
...portals of chaos, the creation of nexions...
For some reason I wrote lemurs as clusters of powers
. I need to make sure to read Marx's 18th Brumaire.
...from the horrid angles, compacted into the numerical matrix of nine...
...such passion, as it once was, has been exhausted...
This writing has the first mention of Drill Sgt. Grey that I don't know if I could do anything with, but I find the basic idea somewhat interesting. This is also where they first use THEM in all caps which I think is a nod to Heaven's Gate writings. This reminds me that I need to include some kind of UFO worshiping occult order in my book, more than likely with the leader having had experienced some kind of abduction.
...delight in your perfumed lair...
This writing is possibly where I started to develop the idea of the Family of the Immortals which I imagine as a weird hippie commune in the 1960's devoted to the worship of Shugara.
...is based upon mutual devotion and a state of complete blood incest between its members...
There's a turn of phrase here, Land of the Dark Immortals, thinking I could potentially use the phrase Dark Immortals to refer to the Archdemons of the Asmodean Numogram. I could also use the Shattered Immortals as another phrase to refer to the Archons of Hell (who warrant having multiple different names to refer to them as a whole since they developed historically over time through different occult orders).
Taking stock we have the Archons of Hell of the Numogram of Gaubni, who are the Undead Gods, the Shattered Immortals.
A Nexion is a direct link or contact line to a certain source, it is a tendril leading to that abysmal source of the backwards dark.
I can make that make sense later.
...will become a physical nexion in the flesh...being forever stained for the rest of their existence...
Today by Nightmare Tyrant is the worst writing in the entire book, but its mention of worshiping suns reminded me that I need to read Cyclonopedia so I can write about an occult order dedicated to Tellurian insurgency, much like how I imagine the Satanic Front. Perhaps this could be the group behind the Asmodean Numogram.
...the gates of Saturn, the black spaces of deathly silence...
Saturn, the realm of Shugara. This reminds me that I when I reread the works of the CCRU I need to pay attention to the planetary associations of each of the Zones to see if it gives me any ideas for the Numogram of Gaubni. This writing also has a mention of Baphomet which is another thing much like Choronzon where I currently don't have any ideas for how I want to try to work it into my story. I'm thinking Baphomet could serve as an avatar of Azazel from the Asmodean Numogram to perform a similar hideous gnosis for my other character Dr. Nicholas Bodin, the rival of Dr. Hubbur who I'm very loosely basing off of Michael Aquino, a man I find intensely interesting.
...the silence has become the song of the Abyss...
I think this is the writing there I decided I wanted to name the secret government project for the construction of Vindex the Vindex Protocol and have essentially all of the 3 main figures behind the 3 different Numograms working together before going their separate ways. Dr. Jonathan Hubbur of the Numogram of Gaubni, Dr. Nicholas Bodin of the Asmodean Numogram, and Dr. Anastasia Roseberry of the Numogram of Gabriel. Representing my deviations from the Order of Nine Angles, the orthodox Satanism
of the Satanic Front, and my interest in Christian (Catholic) mysticism respectively.
...and basking under the radioactive glow of atomic mushroom clouds who look down upon you with leering, spiral eyes...
This is also the first writing that mentions Nythra which is another holdover from the Order of Nine Angles, they digitally reduce to 5, the Zone of Budsturga, but I thought the name Budsturga sounded more compelling so I named the Zone after that instead. Still trying to see if there's anything I can think of that I could name after Nythra because this name tends to get used a lot and I do think it has a nice ring to it.
There's a part two of this writing which is where I stole and then edited the small poetic fragment that will adorn the first page of this book.
This writing is the first one in the section titled Practical Vampiric Alchemy which is another turn of phrase that I really like and want to use for something.
...you will come to know her as your mother, it is in the infinite black of her womb that our rebirth takes form...
Here in my physical copy, this is also the writing where I tried to start thinking of what I want the diagrams of the 3 different Numograms to look like, for the Numogram of Gaubni I'm thinking a design very similar to the symbol on the cover of Revolutionary Demonology. Somewhere I also wrote out how I want the numbers to be organized but I can't remember where I kept that. I'm sure it's in my first draft somewhere drawn on the margins. For some strange reason, I also appear to have wrote down what time of day they're all associated with, Night for the Numogram of Gaubni, Day for the Asmodean Numogram, and Twilight for the Numogram of Gabriel. This is also where I decided that I want to refer to the Zones of the Numogram of Gaubni, but the Thrones of the Asmodean Numogram, and the Gates of the Numogram of Gabriel. I don't know if any of this will hold until later.
...sigils themselves are keys to the abysmal energies of the Undead Gods...
...to be likened unto the outpouring of flame from the apparatus of war...
This is the writing where there was a turn of phrase, Palaces of the Mighty, that gave me the general idea that I want every one of the Undead Gods and essentially every Zone of all three Numograms to have their own realms and palaces at the center of each realm, their sulfur kingdoms and netherrealms.
...breathing icy vapors into the minds of the devoted, chanting mantras of creation's demise...
...tear at your hair and cut at your skin as to begin to die day by day. Weep unrestrained as soon there will be no more tears left to cry...
Maybe the zones of the Numogram of Gabriel could be referred to as Crowns? I wrote down at the very end of this writing that I need to read Ulysses and the writings of Arthur Machen, an old member of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. I need to try to read as many of the fiction authors from the Golden Dawn as I can as I feel they're the only writers understanding what I'm trying to accomplish here.
This writing mentions the embracing of the shadowside
which is where I originally got the name for the Shadowside BBS that will feature in my story, if I recall correctly the general idea is that I wanted to use Shadowside as either the name for the realm of Lidagon, or more broadly as the name of the realm from which all of the gods of the Numogram of Gaubni reside collectively, similar to one of the parallel universes of Magic the Gathering lore or Pandemonium from Diablo 2.
This writing also first mentions the grade rank of External Adept which is definitely a holdover from the degree structure of the Order of Nine Angles which got me thinking that I'm gonna have to remember to flesh out all of the hierarchies of the different occult orders that populate my book. I think by the time of the Temple of the Red Lodge I want them to start to move away from rigid occult hierarchies to a more horizontal organization.
From the title of the writing I just had the idea that maybe only in Shadowside and the realm of the Asmodeans they have palaces, but in the realm of the Numogram of Gabriel they have cathedrals with altars at the center. There needs to be a location (in what we call the real world) reminiscent of the interior of the big cathedral at the center of the city in the video game Harvester. I love that game.
I need to remember to read Blanchot's writings on the impossibility of death.
This writing also mentions Conrad Robury of the Order of Nine Angles and I haven't yet decided if I want to try to create a character that steals his name, a certain Dr. Robury. There's also a mention of the Tempel ov Azagthoth but I've seen their writings, there's not much to write home about. I wanted to use the name Azagthoth for something but I think since I already have Atazoth and Astaroth that more than likely things would just get too confusing (it's already confusing with just those two) so I decided against it. A shame, really. Maybe for another project.
Just as an aside, this piece has selections that were later used for Sutter's writing of Sword of Undeath, a rather disappointing and depressing work where Sutter cannibalizes his own work in much less interesting ways. First as tragedy, then as farce as the saying goes.
...one may decide to no longer embrace the denizens of the abyss, however, the denizens of the abyss, once contacted, will forever be interested in embracing you...
...a bleak path lies before you, strewn with the blood of those who've come before...
I do think I want to refer to the adherents of the Temple of the Red Lodge as the Blood Pool. I wrote down at the end the blood pool should be a rhizomatic structure.
Here we have the first mention of Abatu who corresponds to the Zone of Azanigin, I don't know what I want to do with this one either but I like how it sounds.
...all that is great is built upon sorrow...
...this is similar to the beating of the heart of the slain dragon Tiamat as her blood flowed out in tune with the heartbeat, creating the world...
Again, I need to read Cyclonopedia and Revolutionary Demonology.
This is also the writing where I realized I wanted to have a scene (perhaps just a paragraph) of an occult adherent that underwent a period of extreme asceticism, subsisting on a diet of only meat and milk for three months. I think it should have a similar feeling to the scene of Charles Freck's psychedelic suicide in A Scanner Darkly, humorous but genuine.
This is the second writing of the section Tales ov the Blood Pool, where I am going to steal a lot of shit from. In this writing I stole the name of the main character Wulsin to create the character Dr. Samuel Wulsin, the first occult teacher of Dr. Jonathan Hubbur, the Johannes Trithemius to Hubbur's Agrippa.
...all the earth lies in wait, in sensual and feverish anticipation of the arrival of the Undead Gods from the black planes of Shadowside...
What's the plane of immanence and the plane of consistency?
I highlighted the phrase harsh ordeals
which is now currently making me think that maybe the TOB emphasis on ordeals as part of the harsh alchemical change process
can be transfigured through schizoanalysis.
...the faces and soft bodies of the many girls and others that he had loved, and inevitably lost...
On the very next page at the end of this story you can see a short sequence of various drawings and photographs from the Tempel ov Blood, as strange as it sounds I want to reuse some of these for my book and completely change their context. One of the short stories I have planned for this book is named after one of the collages.
See the alien on the hill, locked and loaded and ready to kill.
This short story is fucking bonkers and has parts that are strangely racist but regardless there's still things in here that I wanted to steal and transform. The first thing, the main character is named Stephens, which I turned into Stephen. Later, there's a character named Peter Saunders, a black man portrayed with stereotypes that date everywhere from the 1970's to the 1990's. I'm under the impression that the author of this story was never friends with a black person. Anyway, I mashed the main character together with the other to create Stephen Saunders, who in my mind is a composite of Frantz Fanon and Harry Haywood of Louisiana Creole descent. I want him to be capable of speaking French. The other thing I took from one of the opening paragraphs is the name of the Selven Institute, which in this story is described as a psychiatric ward, I'm changing this to be the name of the organization responsible for the Vindex Protocol that a few of the main characters were apart of. I don't think I decided on a time frame for that yet. This short story also mentions a certain Lake Huron and the city of Saginaw, Michigan which I may or may not use as a location for something.
At the end of the first section of this short story I wrote Satan is basically Exodia and the 9 zones are aspects of Satan the divine One. God and Satan are essentially the same thing?
This might be useful later.
The second section of the story mentions Buffalo, New York. Another location I might use for something. At the end I wrote that my appropriation of these Tempel writings could be similar to what Zizek said about Rammstein, appropriating fascist aesthetics and gestures strictly at their pre-ideological for libidinal enjoyment and investment.
The third part of the story mentions the word Moriah, which I take to be a reference to Mount Moriah from the Bible. I'll have to check later if there's anything I can do with this. This part of the story takes place in Meridian, Mississippi, again I'll have to check this out later and see if I can find anything usable. Later on I instead wrote Meridian, Nebraska and thought maybe Stephen Saunders could have his first teaching post there. There's a character named Old Man Calhoun that I changed to Calhoun Kurosawa, named loosely after the creator of Hong Kong 97 who wrote lurid and exploitative travel books of Southeast Asian countries for a Japanese audience. I'm weirdly interested in films like Shin Death File 3 where the photo of a corpse from the Bosnian War was taken from for Hong Kong 97 and I've always wanted to write a short story about the gore tape trading underground of Japan, but I'm not Japanese so I probably wouldn't do a very good job. This reminds me, I love the Art of Self Defense, what a wonderful film. There's also a character named Walter Shivley that I changed to Dr. Shively who I think I wanted to turn into a woman and make them Dr. Hubbur's love interest during the Vindex Protocol days, basically his Misato if Dr. Hubbur is Kaji. Maybe even his baby mama. This part of the story also has one of the characters who's an undercover member of an organization called the Leninist Communist Brigade, which I think is a really dumb name because no one has ever described themselves historically as merely a Leninist, at least not in the context of a revolutionary movement. A more appropriate name would be the Marxist-Leninist Communist Brigade but that sounds a bit too long. I think I'd be better off making one or multiple of the Temple of the Red Lodge members ex-Red Guards.
Right here, we have my favorite story of the entire section, which vaguely reminds me of one of the Ligotti stories in Songs of a Dead Dreamer that I'll need to reread soon. I honestly think Thomas Ligotti should be one of my reference points for the writing of this project. This story is where I stole the character Greta who I gave the last name of Voss. I wanted her to have a taste for fashion and digital computers and to have come from a more well off family. This story also mentions a revolutionary group called Black August, which is definitely something I'll need to use later somehow. There's also a location referred to as The Convent which seems to be a sort of BDSM dungeon for rich assholes, I'm gonna steal that too and rework it somehow but I haven't decided on a city to place it in. One of the characters gifts another a book on Elizabeth Bathory and I want to see if there's anything I can do with that, maybe there's a book on her somewhere that's similar to Bataille's writings on Gilles de Rais.
...never love anything so much that you can't see it die...
There's a part where they use a password and my dumb ass wrote the grey nug flies north for the winter
which is a joke line from Dragon Age: Origins. To this day I love that game, later I'll need to see if I can install a version with the French dub from GOG, I'd love to play it again. There's also a reference to remote viewing but I think the whole idea is stupid and I'm not going to use it.
...Noctulius, the patron of her temple...
Maybe I can use Noctulius not as the name of the 8th Zone, but as a historical adherent of Lidagon. I don't know what century to place them in yet. At the very end of the story there's a character named Father Wolf that I think I want to change to Father Wolfram, from a character I created for an unrelated writing project named Wolfram Gottlieb von Dragan who I intended to be a fictional German Idealist philosopher who was a contemporary of Fichte who wrote an unfinished manuscript on Aztec philosophy through a specifically Kantian lens, based off of the firsthand writings of another fictional character, Jaime Mafura de Costa. I don't know if I'll ever be able to accomplish that writing because I don't know if I'll ever get around to reading and digesting all 3 of Kant's Critiques, let alone the works of Fichte.
I remember the very first time I read this story I thought it felt like a very bizarre sort of wish fulfillment.
I took a couple things from this story but not much, the first was that I stole the setting, Arthyn Academy and I decided to try to flesh it out further since it's horribly underdeveloped. I'm not thinking Poudlard so much as I'm thinking that it's an otherwise normal boarding school but with merely a couple buildings and a couple teachers associated with its occult undercurrents. At some point, I don't remember why or when, I decided that I want the location for Arthyn Academy to be in Warwick, Rhode Island, as a slight nod to the CCRU but also because I thought the East Coast setting would be sufficiently Lovecraftian. The only building I kept that's a holdover from its origin point in this story is the Donner Building, which if I recall correctly I think I wanted to keep as the girls' dormitory building. Need to remind myself to look up the different varieties and colors of quartz at some point. At the very end of the story it's revealed that the characters were influenced by a man named Gwydion who shows up later in another story, and I decided to create the character Gwydion Greenwood out of him who I envision as both a painter and printmaker.
This story is rather unremarkable, but if possible I want to use the name for something.
...her split blood spawned several golems...
In the next story I stole the last name Keller to be used for another character but I haven't really fleshed them out and I don't really have any ideas for them. Sometimes I just write down names in case I think of something later and then need a name for somebody.
...devoured by the backwards dark, which gleaned under him like rays of a black sun swallowing the light...
The only thing I took from this writing is that there was a mention of the alleged Satanic child abuse in Edenton, North Carolina that I realized I want to see if I can use for something else.
From this writing I realized from the last lines that I want to relate this project somehow to cybernetics because of the writing's emphasis on control.
I'm still debating whether or not I want to try to use the TOB sigil as the emblem to adorn the front cover of this book when it's finished. I don't see why not only because I have yet to come up with anything better.
...organic growth gone askew, the creation of abominations...
...becoming the poison of god...
...vampiric alembic...
...and thus make a firm and grim resolution not only to match, but excel, the deeds of those who have gone before...
This section is merely to take stock of all of the writings written by one Commissar Tyrannous, one of the worst but most interesting authors of the Tempel ov Blood, specifically because he actually bothered to cite his sources.
...insanity is only a word for how far one is willing to go to accomplish one's goals...
Reminding myself to read The Theatre and Its Double by Artaud and Peter Sotos's writings in The Gates of Janus. The writings by this author reminded me that instead of trying to irresponsibly appropriate elements of Jihadist Islam I should instead just reread Dune. Maybe I could have another occult order in the book that's Japanese in origin and based off of the Aum Shinrikyo, this might be an incredibly irresponsible idea.
This author gave me the idea to watch M by Fritz Lang at some point.
This story features the character Gwydion again but this time in the role of the victim. He goes to meet a certain Jonathan Hubbur in a mall and that is exactly where I decided to steal the name Jonathan Hubbur to turn him into the character that I know him as now, the breezy, chain smoking occultist with pink quartz sunglasses. There's a short mention of Pazuzu which reminds me to read Cyclonopedia and also to remember to watch The Exorcist. There's a mention of the monarch butterfly which I decided to make one of the symbols of Shugara. From this writing I also decided that Jonathan Hubbur should meet Gwydion Greenwood before his PhD thesis. In this short story Gwydion's real name is Thomas which reminded me that I need to read the Gospel of Thomas at some point. I also think this is the story where I wanted to make Dr. Hubbur a Louisiana native but decided against it. I'm also thinking that maybe there should be a location somewhat like the Korova Milkbar of A Clockwork Orange, maybe The Convent? I also imagine The Convent as a place for young, drunk adolescents like the Emporium in Dazed and Confused.
...Gwydion's mind seemed to shatter like glass, breaking into a million different directions...
In the Epilogue of this book there's a short reference to Allen Ginsberg, need to look into him more.
...so he sits in meditation, staving off his rage with alcohol, until the moment he can open his third eye and bring the universe to a fiery end...
On the blank page following the Epilogue, I wrote a list of books that I should read instead the next time the urge to read Liber 333 ever strikes me again. On page 288. That's it, I've finally gone through everything in this book and took from it everything that I wanted to take. Now, all I need to do is go through my first draft again and start organizing it into something that I think I can write with confidence.
Thank you to V.D. for providing me with the physical copy of this book, I hope you're not too horrified by the fact that it's now stained with my blood just as much as it's stained with yours. I will always remember the moments we've spent together, either at your father's or your mother's house, or in your smoke filled apartment where I last saw you before your long journey. You will always be my brother and I will always cherish our friendship.